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Am so scared, I might be going blind.
Am 26yr/M from Nigeria in west Africa . My eyes have been sensitive to light since I was 11 years old, it started when I was outdoor playing with a friend, and dust got into my eyes, since then I have this HUGE sensitivity to any/all light source(cell phone, laptop, television, touch lights, car lights, being outdoor) , and it's been slowly damaging my vision. I told My dad who took me to a nurse who gave me some drugs, injections and eye drops which did nothing. This condition has define almost all my life, causing me anxiety, depression, feelings of uncertainty about the future, making me feel inferior, there were days I would wake up at night and cry. some years later I lost my dad, and I got some money from his pension which I spent it all on visits to ophthalmologists... When I first visited the doctor she did a couple of eye tests and told me she didn't find anything wrong with my eyes,she gave me eye drops, drugs nothing worked, I went to another hospital and was told the same thing, but this time I was persistent and the doctor gave me glasses which did not help and only makes my eyes hurt so I stopped using it .... I was frustrated again, depressed and having suicidal thought.(in my country therapist and counselor are not really a thing, that's if there's even any)but I managed to get on with my life found meaning and decided to go to school,but I was broke so my mom and elder brother worked multiple jobs to send me to school to study fashion designng...in the last four years I've grown alot,I now have wonderful friends, build my confidence, even became the head of a department in my church,I did well in school, out of about 200 students I was among the top 5 in my class (not trying to brag) but I found purpose, and meaning in life and I worked SO HARD! , I graduated 3 months ago...I was beginning to plan for the future. I even fell in love with a girl I would love to call my wife someday....but since two weeks ago my eyes have gotten worse, I can't see clearly, I now find it hard to read text,to focus my eyes on something,the light sensitivity is still the same as 15yrs ago with my vision declining every since day,... I am now depressed now more than I had ever been before (not having suicidal thoughts though)... My life is not perfect but I have come to love and appreciate it. now I might be slowly going blind and I don't know what to do, I've been at home all week by myself doing a lot of thinking like,if my eyes get more worse how will I read? as a fashion designer how would I sketch? how would I sew clothes? will I be poor and a liability to my family that is struggling to survive? will I have to rely on someone constantly for help? will I get a job? all I know and love is to make clothes. will i get to be with the one I love? or get married? will I be lonely? .... I called my elder brother and told him about my eyes getting worse and he tells me come back home (I live in another state)so we will go see another eye doctor,but I'm scared to meet another doctor who might tell me that everything is OK with my eyes... But the bright side is that this time am choosing to have faith so I'm trying to think and write down so as to relate to the doctor about all my symptoms and health issues I have had since and before this condition started, also planning to investigate if any family members have such eye condition..... I am depressed and uncertain about the future but I know I need help, advice, and someone to talk to.
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I know how you feel as I have issues with my eyes. One of the nerves that hold the eye straight is missing from birth. The other nerves that kept my eye straight finally got too weak and tired and now my left eye will slowly move inward and that gives me double vision. I had a long road to go and accidentally came across a Dr. called a vision therapist because all other vision drs said they could find nothing wrong. Health care is bad in most the world, even the U.S. where all they want is to push pills and hope to shut you up. But I know it is worse in countries like yours. I think your best bet is seeing about getting on a list to be seen by 'Doctors without borders' where US doctors travel to other countries to help. I am not a medical person of any sort, however I have watched some medical shows on TV and often they have portrayed people who very slowly have eyesight getting worse and often when there is nothing else that is confirmed, a scan of the brain can show what might be causing your vision problem which often is a very slow growing tumor, that is not cancerous, but its size affects the vision and it slowly gets worse. This kind of situation, removing the tumor is not easily done in poorer countries and is best to at least get an MRI scan if possible of your head to prove or negate that. If a tumor, you may need to have a Dr. in the US help with that. All I can think of is to use the computer to research the best Drs in the US and write their hospitals and ask for help because in some cases, Drs will do the work at no cost to you. I am sorry to hear this is happening to you. Perhaps there are people in your church who will help you research and find US doctors who will help you.
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